Frustration. Feeling unwanted. Not being welcomed. Negative energy. Anger. Confusion. Grumpy. Cold. Empty.
No one will ever understand.
Many times I said I’ll leave, I’m going home or I purposely said the things which totally opposite from what I’m dying to hear from. Because I want to hear,”stay please.”
Many times I left, because no one ever ask me to stay. Even if I stay, part of me, inside has already left. Because no one said “stay”. I stayed for the sake of hoping to see if people every notice my inner feelings. Sadly, no one.
And I’m sorry, I can’t pretend to be bubbly happy or stay positive when inside I felt pain, hurt and negative. Even if its front of the one I love, I just can’t. This is me, the real me.
When I feel like I’m not being wanted, that’s the time I feel like I should leave and that’s is also the time I need someone to comfort me and tell me I am needed and I should stay. It requires a lot of patient and understand because I am the type of person that are hard to be understand.
Am not perfect. I can’t be the person that everyone expect me to be. I have countless flaws which is hard to be corrected. All I need is someone who understand me, sees my inner thought and know what I’m feeling and I’ll change.
Please and make everyone happy except myself.
Words that cant be express are the hardest. Tears are the only cure for cold night.