I am hurting so much that not a single words can explain my pain. Sleeping with tears and nobody knows.
It’s so easy to say “I am sorry” in any situation. But it’s not easy to comfort your soul to forget the pain. The one who apologies is not a loser but a winner because he/she willing to lose herself in order bring back the person they love.
A suddenly rush of fear…how long can we make it? I dare not imagine. Part of me already have no energy to fight anymore. I wonder how much longer will it last to fight.
Am guessing tonight will be a long night.
I don’t know what got into me. Was excited to show him a video about a surprised that prepared by the husband to his wife. I haven’t even watch the video and I am excited to show him. But the way he reacted was like I am expect or hinting him to do that for me. Frankly speaking, I did not expect anything. I just merely wanna share what I feel and what I enjoy with him.
His reaction turn me off right away. I wasn’t exited to watch that video anymore. In fact, I kind of hate myself for being a romantic dreamer.
I promised before that I will never ever gonna expect, hint or ask him to do stuff ( surprises or romantic stuff). I ought to keep that promise. But somehow deep inside me I felt like I am being misinterpret or maybe I am too sensitive?? Because we had a quarrel over this issue.
Anyway, is better not to see. For that I won’t be expecting or set my bar too high for surprises. And best, to keep those secret little hope with myself. Sometimes, sharing too much isn’t a good thing ether. Should learned to keep things myself.
It’s kind of sad when you feel that you are being taken for granted by the person who you never thought they will. Regardless if they did it intentionally or unintentionally. The most seriously types of being taken for granted is when courtesy, politeness and generousness being taken wrongly as a HABIT.
And it’s being repeated after one and another, same issue, every time will slowly push the person nearer to their limit of tolerance. Including the ones, you see them as angle. When someone assumed another person to/must/have to help in a situation without asking whether they actually can or want to do it or no is obviously taking the person for granted.
Seriously, can’t they ask? Is just a matter of politeness and respecting the person. Why not ask if they can help or make an arrangement together rather than assumed that their answer will always be YES!
Even if their answer always is a YES. But by asking the question first before assume it will change the whole situation. It will shows that you actually consider their sides, respect their decision and assured that they really can help you out. This should be the correct way.
A words of thank you and an act of appreciation will not cause you much. But when you take a person or a things for granted and when you only realized it after you lost it will cause you a whole lot more than you think.
Never make someone feel being taken for granted over your very own selfishness to try to make an adjustment and assumed every expenses should be cover by that person JUST BECAUSE YOU KNOW THEY ARE DEARLY CLOSE TO YOU AND YOU KNOW THEM VERY WELL. It’s a wrong move!
" … love her the way she deserved to be loved. Treat her the way she deserved to be treated. Never let her feel mistreated. Never let her feel insecure. Never let her feel like she’s being taken for granted. Never neglect her feelings. Fight for her and show her how much you want her in your life…. “
Love knows no limits to its endurance, no end to its trust, no ending to its hope; IT CAN OUTLAST ANYTHING. Love still stands when all else has fallen.
Frustration. Feeling unwanted. Not being welcomed. Negative energy. Anger. Confusion. Grumpy. Cold. Empty.
No one will ever understand.
Many times I said I’ll leave, I’m going home or I purposely said the things which totally opposite from what I’m dying to hear from. Because I want to hear,”stay please.”
Many times I left, because no one ever ask me to stay. Even if I stay, part of me, inside has already left. Because no one said “stay”. I stayed for the sake of hoping to see if people every notice my inner feelings. Sadly, no one.
And I’m sorry, I can’t pretend to be bubbly happy or stay positive when inside I felt pain, hurt and negative. Even if its front of the one I love, I just can’t. This is me, the real me.
When I feel like I’m not being wanted, that’s the time I feel like I should leave and that’s is also the time I need someone to comfort me and tell me I am needed and I should stay. It requires a lot of patient and understand because I am the type of person that are hard to be understand.
Am not perfect. I can’t be the person that everyone expect me to be. I have countless flaws which is hard to be corrected. All I need is someone who understand me, sees my inner thought and know what I’m feeling and I’ll change.
Please and make everyone happy except myself.